Sirius & Lux

doggy style > explain

grandparent > we all have our different parts to play
grandparent > and each piece has someone different as more of a lead element
grandparent > and sometimes we need some people playing the same part to boost it
grandparent > and sometimes we don't have someone there to play their part
grandparent > so we'll play a piece that doesn't rely so heavily on them
grandparent > even though we'll need them again for the future

doggy style > hm
doggy style > ok valid
doggy style > that makes me feel a lil better
doggy style > I just wanna like
doggy style > actually contribute to the team
doggy style > instead of just causing a bunch of trouble
doggy style > it's the first time I've actually wanted to work with a bunch of people and I don't wanna screw it up
doggy style > practically the whole rest of my life I've been flying solo and the only person I had to worry about was me but now I've got the whole of doca and parva again and amil and that's not even mentioning I'm an anchor and I'm still figuring out what that means
doggy style > like, the last ten years have been like 0 and suddenly I'm at 100 and I have to figure shit out on the fly
doggy style > u know?

grandparent > i'm so glad the DoCA is a healthier place for you
grandparent > and i won't hold anything against you while you're still learning
grandparent > but also
grandparent > don't feel like you're not needed just because we're doing missions without you
grandparent > that's just a different piece
grandparent > we're going to need you back when we want to do more things

doggy style > lol
doggy style > I'll come back eventually
doggy style > once I figure out a better way to act and all that
doggy style > as if you could actually keep me away
doggy style > besides SOMEONE has to hold mary-jane back from leaping valiantly into the fray every time someone has a minor inconvenience

grandparent > do you not trust me to stop Mary-Jane getting into trouble?

doggy style > nah it's not that
doggy style > I just wanna keep her from doing dumb shit
doggy style > I'm her anchor and holding her back from doing stupid things is my job now I think
doggy style > I'm still figuring out what the fuck this means.

grandparent > maybe you need to find other people who are anchors?
grandparent > it doesn't seem right that you're working it out from scratch
grandparent > maybe even talk to Artemis if Mary-Janr doesn't know enough
grandparent >
grandparent > it just seems a little...
grandparent > off...
grandparent > that your perception of your role is that you are the sole protector of Mary-Jane

grandparent > how are you Sirius?
grandparent > have you picked up any hobbies?

doggy style > I've been watching a lot of buzzfeed tasty videos
doggy style > does that count
doggy style >
doggy style > just kidding I've been cooking a bunch
doggy style > I wanna save up money to buy a saxophone again too

grandparent > oh good
grandparent > i know you like cooking
grandparent >
grandparent > did you play saxophone before?

doggy style > I like sewing too
doggy style > maybe if gua stops being mad at me I'll go help at her shop
doggy style > yes
doggy style > yes I did :3
doggy style > my parents wanted me to learn piano or violin but I insisted on saxophone
doggy style > I wanted to be able to play careless whisper